SHADOWleet

Even when i have every right to be mad at someone;to hate someone; or hurt someone, I can't. I always feel like I'm the terrible person and I did something wrong or its my fault. I'm so tired of being like this. This is why people always walk all over me and use me. I always see it coming but I let them do it anyway. I give up...

I'm not happy, that's just it i'm not happy. Why? I don't know. I'm sorry if i'm some really negative person but i wear my emotions on my sleeves. I wish there was someone in the world who really understood that and would not judge me for it. I'm surrounded by people who do nothing but judge even when they don't even say two words to me and i'm sick of it. I can't talk to people without feeling awkward and I can't be around people because of it. I hate how people always think i'm angry when i'm...

I could be as cold and heartless as everyone else around me. Maybe then I could stop crying myself to sleep at night and not feel so alone...

dear life,
you've destroyed my heart and ravaged my soul. I dare ask now what more can you take from me? Will you take my eyes so i can't see? Or will you make me brain dead so i can't think? Will you break my arms so i can't feel? Or will you take my legs so i can't walk. I ask you this now so i'm not surprised when it happens later.

Sincerely, your regular punching
mariah