So Robert, aka Salty H2O, has been gone for almost 3 years as of next month. The first year I s as having nightmares about him, as in thinking he suffered and that he hated me for how much I hassled him the day he passed away. About half the 2nd year I started having good dreams about him from getting a hug to him telling me its gonna be ok. And then last night first time I dreamt of him in idk how long... but I dont get the dream at all...


I have no idea where I was, but...

So, I don't know why but I have been wanting to have a kid for some years now. I'm 21 about to be 22, yes you would think I wanna be out partying and all that good stuff but I honestly dont. I want a family so badly. I've watched my sister be a mom since I was 15 years old. I've been by her side every step of the way and watched my 2 beautiful nieces grow into the most precious things in my family! They are brats sometimes but I love them unconditionally! My best friend just had her son like a year...

Who woulda and coulda imagined that I'd be getting married. If you woulda asked me when i first joined this clan at the age of 16 *6 years ago* if I was ever gonna get married I woulda straight up and told you NO Way! lol. But now 21 about to be 22, And I'm planning my wedding. My first and my only! I've got the best person I could ever imagine being with.

Things are coming together so well its amazing! When I remember planning my moms wedding she was so stressed out. And I'm not...

Its been two years since you been gone. I miss you more then words can describe. Its still as hard as 2 years ago. I been listening to all the songs I listened to right after you past. Every little laugh with you I cherish to this day! Thank you for giving me the best brother a girl could ever ask for. Your the best friend i coulda ever had. I become loss of words to say knowing I've said them all a million and 1 times! I love you brother!

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