Funeral....a very emotional journey
Posted 10-04-2008 at 01:00 AM by PMS Krays
Well this is my first blog, ad I decided to write down some stuff I had on my mind.....
Well today was a pretty sucky day simply because my grandmother died. We had her funeral today at 11 o'clock in the morning. To be honest this is the second funeral I have been to in my life. The first one of course I was like 2, and I remember it like it was yesterday, that was the day my great grandmother died. This day was pretty hard for me due to what I remember from when I was younger. The funearl was in L.A so we had some driving to do. My stepdad was a emotional wreck and this was pretty bad for him and the rest of th family. She died on September 24th and we had the funeral today, October 3rd. I didn't know my grandmother on a very personal level because we hardly see his side of the family, only the times when we see one another is like on the holidays. I am very close to my moms side of the family, but his side is pretty alien. But notheles we get along whenever we see one another.
Like I said I never knew my grandmother on a personal level, but seeing her and being at the funeral brought me closer to her somehow, in a way that I cannot explain. I think that monent in time happened to all of us, just another step on how an important member in the family passes and that feeling of, strict, emotional longing hits you like a ton of bricks when you least expect it. The funeral took and emotional toll on me, my mom, my sis, and most of all my stepdad who took it hard. It was a beautiful ceremony, but I just can't stand the thought of someone who you love so dearly leave you. But all of our faith combined helped us through this day, which I am thankful. I don't think I have seen my stepdad cry so hard in my life. This day was pretty bad for my mom simply because it reminded her when she was at the funeral of my great grandmother. But this day has made all of us stronger......
I learned an extremly important lesson today.....to cheerish the ones that you have on this earth expecially the ones you love because there time on this earth is limited. One day you have them and then the next they are gone. Love them unconditionally because there will be a day where you are not able to hug them, touch them, talk to them, or run to them for comfort. That is really important to me, and most of all family is really important to me.
My stepdad took it better than expected, I didn't think I was going to cry at all but seeing my mom and stepdad made me do otherwise. Viewing the body was hard, but at the same time peaceful, she just looked like she was in a deep sleep. But I really......I just got back like 3 hours ago, it was a pretty long and emotional journey for me and my family, but we all came together to support each other through this day. I don't think I can take going to another funeral......it's emotionally draining more than I can take.......
This day made me....stronger faith wise. and it tought me to love the ones that are close to you unconditionally.......
Well today was a pretty sucky day simply because my grandmother died. We had her funeral today at 11 o'clock in the morning. To be honest this is the second funeral I have been to in my life. The first one of course I was like 2, and I remember it like it was yesterday, that was the day my great grandmother died. This day was pretty hard for me due to what I remember from when I was younger. The funearl was in L.A so we had some driving to do. My stepdad was a emotional wreck and this was pretty bad for him and the rest of th family. She died on September 24th and we had the funeral today, October 3rd. I didn't know my grandmother on a very personal level because we hardly see his side of the family, only the times when we see one another is like on the holidays. I am very close to my moms side of the family, but his side is pretty alien. But notheles we get along whenever we see one another.
Like I said I never knew my grandmother on a personal level, but seeing her and being at the funeral brought me closer to her somehow, in a way that I cannot explain. I think that monent in time happened to all of us, just another step on how an important member in the family passes and that feeling of, strict, emotional longing hits you like a ton of bricks when you least expect it. The funeral took and emotional toll on me, my mom, my sis, and most of all my stepdad who took it hard. It was a beautiful ceremony, but I just can't stand the thought of someone who you love so dearly leave you. But all of our faith combined helped us through this day, which I am thankful. I don't think I have seen my stepdad cry so hard in my life. This day was pretty bad for my mom simply because it reminded her when she was at the funeral of my great grandmother. But this day has made all of us stronger......
I learned an extremly important lesson today.....to cheerish the ones that you have on this earth expecially the ones you love because there time on this earth is limited. One day you have them and then the next they are gone. Love them unconditionally because there will be a day where you are not able to hug them, touch them, talk to them, or run to them for comfort. That is really important to me, and most of all family is really important to me.
My stepdad took it better than expected, I didn't think I was going to cry at all but seeing my mom and stepdad made me do otherwise. Viewing the body was hard, but at the same time peaceful, she just looked like she was in a deep sleep. But I really......I just got back like 3 hours ago, it was a pretty long and emotional journey for me and my family, but we all came together to support each other through this day. I don't think I can take going to another funeral......it's emotionally draining more than I can take.......
This day made me....stronger faith wise. and it tought me to love the ones that are close to you unconditionally.......
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I know exactly how you are feeling! My uncle died last year, and it was so heart wrenching to see his pale face.
He died young, from cancer. And because of that there was so much controversy over it. But I did my best to ignore the fuss, and simply remembered the good times we had.
These things teach us to cherish our friends and family, because they can be taken away from us in an instant.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.Posted 10-05-2008 at 12:46 PM by Cortana Siffow PMS 
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I'm very sorry to hear about the passing of your grandmother. Funerals are tough. After a bad experience of seeing one of my great-grandfathers (whom I was very close too) at his funeral and with all the fuss & fighting that was going on there I actually have stopped going to funerals. I had many great memories of my great-grandfather which I no longer have because they've been taken over by the image of him in the coffin. When a family member passes now on the day of the funeral I think of all the good memories of that person, then at a later time & on my own I visit their grave. Much <3 Krays. My thoughts are with you & your family.
Posted 10-08-2008 at 09:47 PM by Cyrax
