Crying on the Inside

[Kaiser Mitsu]

Well I wrote this poem a while back when I had some bad habbits. Its got some foul words so I will just post the link to it. But be warned it is at least MC-17 Rated.

Warning this has some adult content. Please read at your own consent










Crying On The Inside
How can i sleep tonight...
how
how can i when i no i am going to wake up the same way tomorrow?
i fear tomorrow...
i no im going to wake up to this life of mine in which i wished was just an illusion just a dream
all day i go
without a simple hello
which would simply make my day
just to see and hear someone say
i care, ill be there
maybe just maybe someone who loved me?
is that to much to ask?
if it is im sorry its not like i ever asked for anything else
the loneliness kills me
all day i go
and no one ever knows
im crying on the inside
I CANT EVEN PRETEND ANYMORE!
I CANT ****IN FAKE A SMILE
I CANT ****ING FAKE IM OK...
people lie to me
people cheat me
....when all i want is for them to be a friend
IM SORRY I DONT NO WHAT I DID BUT I APOLOGIZE
...for everything ive done
everything i havent done
...everything i have yet to do
i am terrified i dont know wat to do with wat im feeling
who can i talk to if i have no one?
i only no to hurt myself.
i only no to cut and carve wat i feel...
all my pain
all my depression
all my agression into me
my legs, my wrists, my arms..
oh god why me...
just kill me
oh god why me...
JUST ****ING TAKE AWAY MY LIFE OF MISERY
wat person derserves to live like this....
im not a person im worthless ****...
im just a waste, i dont want to continue to live
if i'll never be something or someone
my fear of tomorrow has overtaken and won

[Kaiser Mitsu]

Ok i added it so that people could read with out haveing to go to a link